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Name: Denica
Location: Paris, France
Birthday: 3/28/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: Ma Famille, Church, The Empowerment and Advancement of My People, My Guyanese Heritage, Faith, Praying, Les enfants, French, Dining, Travel, Musique, Education, Dormir, Politricks, Shopping, Law and Order SVU (can't get enough), Grad School, Working on my Abs, L'amour, Making people feel good, Giving my mind a work out, Living Life to the Fullest, Enjoying my Youth, Positive People doing Positive Things, Brooklyn, Shoes, Chocolate Ice Cream, losing 10 lbs, health insurance, Grad School, Principalship, United Nations Employment, well rounded black men, summer dresses, accessories, the latest reggae mix cds, locs, black men with locs, incense, building my vocabulary
Occupation: Educator
Industry: Education
Message: message meEmail: email me
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AIM:  sweets3288
Yahoo:  driven1932
Member Since:
6/3/2005
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| I am feeling so much better. Its like something heavy is off my heart and I am able to function properly. Thank God! I really have to start enjoying life's lessons for what they are. Tough times don't last only tough people do. I am doing my best to look at the brighter side of everything and learn and grow from it. God is working...Had a lovely weekend. The weather was summer weather for a change. Its been raining here for like 2 months and last weekend it was actually sunny and warm.  sandals and summer dresses Gotta love getting dressed up. It feels great. Going to the Ballet tomorrow. I'm excited, haven't been to a ballet in years. The National Dance theater of Cuba is in Paris and there is a salsa party after. watch out now, my salsa moves will surprise you.  be encouraged | | |
| I've come to the realisation that I need an outlet here in Paris. Its always a pleasure to talk to loved ones on the phone, but there is that 6 hour time difference. When I'm in a funky mood and feeling down(like right now) or even when I'm up and excited about something, I have to consider the time. I could'nt sleep last night for some reason, I kept dreaming random things... I woke up this morning and I had this tight ball in my stomach that wont go away. I'm feeling a little lonely. This Parisian experience is all a part of my testimony. I've been going thru some things that have only made me stronger. I always try to look at things on the bright side. My loved ones and I have our health thank God and I'm learning how to be a fighter and trust more in HIM. Xanga is going to be my outlet. I am going to update as often as possible to release at anytime. It also feels good to read some of my fellow xanga head blogs. Funny, inspiring, motivating etc... And its also good to hear feedback on whateevr is on my mind. I'm taking steps to stay in Paris for another year. I run into road blocks here and there but I'm not going down with out a fight. Went home to NY for one week and had a blast. My cousin got married and I was of course prepared for the comments and questions.... "So when are you going? you know I'm getting old" "When you get married, I'm going to dance all night." even the pastor told me she's getting old. O boy! All I could do is laugh. I have so manythings going on that I can't even think about that. I do day dream about it and I visit theknot.com from time to time just to remind myself a couple things... Came back to no job. My position was cut due to a merger. If I would've known this I know I would've stayed home longer. I do believe there is a reason I came back, now I'm waiting patiently(at least trying). I'm doing the best I can as a foreignor. Men...I can't even bring myself to open up. I just gotta keep the faith. Why do they do the things that they do? I refuse to lose faith in ALL men. God, show me a sign. I don't want to be a career woman with money, house etc... then turn around and have no loving husband and children. God is not an author of confusion!!! Peace | | |
| God is... testing me strengthining me teaching me patience working on me and most of all blessing me... Thank you girls so much for your words of encouragement. I've missed all of my xanga fam. I'm feeling so much better now. I needed some time t o let it out and to regroup. My faith was dwindling but now its back and stronger than before. Once you lose faith its so much easier for the devil to take over. I started getting desperate and looking towards some things that would not benefit me for good but rather bad, just to occupy my time. I'm so much better now. I'm so looking forward to finding my job. Its going to be great! I also need to update my xanga and stay in contact more. Support and encouragement helps a great deal! Sending Big eHugs across the Atlantic to Keish, Aqua Ama, and Jummy. I wish everyone a great week! | | |
| I'm a complete mess. I turned 25 yesterday and I am so blessed and happy to be here with healthy family and friends, so why do I feel like a mess? This grown up thing can make you feel lonely, stressed and confused. The grown up decisions one makes can affect you for the rest of your life as well as others. I haven't written on xanga for a few months. I'm so out of the loop, but I really came here to express my feelings. I could just call some one, but right now I feel as if I'm getting a load off my chest and besides that, its 3:50 am in the states. I received a priceless gift for my birthday with handwritten messages and pics from my loved ones. I cried like a baby. They sent their love overseas and I just can't stop looking at my gigantic birthday card. I'm going through so much and I feel so weak at times. Being a foreigner and looking for a job in a racist country like France where your picture is required on your resume is so humbling. Do I smile for my resume pic? but if I don't, will I look like an angry black girl? I battled with that before I began sending my resumes. I chose not to smile. Maybe I'll switch it up. Time is ticking and I can't help but to think that my plan is not going to work out. I have this lump in my throat and I feel like I want to cry, however, I'm at work and if I start and I don't think I can stop anytime soon. I need a really good one. I'm not giving up without a fight. Only the strong survive right? | | |
| since i came back from guyana, i have not been on top of my work. i've been daydreaming, facebookin, myspacein and craiglistin. looking for parisian apartments/lofts/homes to share with others. looking for courses to take towards my masters and meeting a few peeps that will be overseas with me working with the french embassy. i may come in at the bottom this month because of my loss of focus. that's how i know money is not the driving factor in my life. i have one more month to leave a mark at ebay/paypal. lemme get on my grind
i've noticed that myspace can be pretty riskay for people in marriages/relationships/ and people on the down low. should your myspace addiction stop once you get married?
i finally went to the optometrist. my vision IS a lil screwed up. i have to get specs for the first time. i need to wear them all the time. wow. who would've thought choosing a pair of glasses would've been so difficult? i narrowed them down to a gucci pair and a pair by carolina herrera. i chose the latter since they looked more mature. then some tells me about this retro, hip, chic, specs spot that actually close to my house. ugh! so i called the optometrist and told them to cancel my order. whew! it was a close call but they did it. i'll update my profile pic with the new specs as soon as i get them.
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